Jillian is married to Weezer bass player Scott Shriner, and they live in Los Angeles with their two sons. She tells live stories with The Moth, and gave a Ted talk about identity and adoption. Jillian writes essays and articles, some of which have been in New York Magazine, The New York Times, The Paris Review, The Los Angeles Times, Vanity Fair, Los Angeles Magazine, Elle, and Salon. She was the only journalist to extensively interview Samuel Little, the most prolific serial killer in American history, chronicled in Joe Berlinger’s hit STARZ documentary, CONFRONTING A SERIAL KILLER. Michael Connelly’s podcast MURDER BOOK: The Women Who Brought Down Samuel Little. Her book BEHOLD THE MONSTER: Confronting a Killer is coming 4/23 from Source Books. Her work has been translated into eighteen languages. Jillian Lauren is a writer, storyteller, and advocate for victims of violent crime. She is the New York Times bestselling author of the memoirs EVERYTHING YOU EVER WANTED, and SOME GIRLS: My Life in a Harem, and the novel PRETTY. Her nonfiction has appeared in Vogue and the Los Angeles Review of Books. She is the author of the novels The Wanderers, The Cranes Dance, and Blind Sight, and a coauthor of the bestselling novel City of Dark Magic and of City of Lost Dreams, published under the pen name Magnus Flyte. Meg Howrey is a former professional ballet dancer and actress. With psychological precision and a masterfully revealed secret at its heart, it asks what it takes to be an artist in America, and the price of forgiveness, of ambition, and of love. They’re Going to Love You is a gripping and gorgeously written novel of heartbreaking intensity. Nineteen years later, when Carlisle receives a phone call that unravels the events of that fateful summer, she sees with new eyes how her younger self has informed the woman she’s become. Instead, a passionate love affair created a rift between the family, with shattering consequences that reverberated for decades to come. But above all else, she longed to be asked to stay at the house on Bank Street, to be a part of Robert and James’s sophisticated world, even as the AIDS crisis brings devastation to their community.

Seduced by the heady pull of mentorship and hoping to follow in the footsteps of her mother-a former Balanchine ballerina-Carlisle’s aspiration to become a professional ballet dancer bloomed. Brilliant but troubled, James gave Carlisle an education in all that he held dear in life-literature, music, and, most of all, dance.

Throughout her childhood, Carlisle Martin got to see her father, Robert, for only a few precious weeks a year when she visited the brownstone apartment in Greenwich Village he shared with his partner, James. A magnetic tale of betrayal, art, and ambition, set in the world of professional ballet, New York City during the AIDS crisis, and present-day Los Angeles.

The cranes dance by meg howrey